Sunday, April 19, 2009
I hate to even post today, but since I missed yesterday, I feel I should let you all what's going on since I do appreciate everyone who's been keeping up with us here.
Today was the hardest day so far. I only woke up once last night and slept really heavy the rest of the night. But this morning, I woke up so tired I didn't want to move. I thought if I got to church I'd feel better (that's usually the case) but not today. Came home and hit the lazy boy... that's pretty much where I've been all afternoon.
I think Gidget "may" be adjusting a little better than I am (I hope). She didn't go looking for him this morning, but she has been pretty clingy today... that's fine with me, cuz it feels good just to hug her. When she looks like she might be looking for him, I try to distract her.
I don't know if I mentioned it or not here (if I did please forgive me) but (eventually) I will be getting another dog... not too soon... the pain right now is too fresh. Besides, I have to wait to see how much I owe Joanne for Mike and work that off, and I HAVE to get my savings built up again... it's so low that it's embarrassing. I can't afford another dog now, and I pray so hard that Gidget NEVER gets sick. Not just for the sake of the money, but she would never put up with all the things Mike went through from the time he was diagnosed with cancer. Gidget's too feisty to get her butt shaved let alone have medical treatments done (such a little brat).
I'm going to close for now. Not really up to much of anything. Gonna try to take a shower and probably go to bed early.
Thanks so much to all of you who have e-mailed, called and posted on here and on IMOM. You are all helping me so much more than you can ever imagine.
God Bless You All!