I'm sorry it's been so long. Again, time just has a way of flying by.
I talked to the doctor Thursday evening. I have to have surgery. He said I have vascular disease and wanted me to get a Cat Scan on Friday and said I would need surgery as soon as possible... within the next two weeks. I hate the thought of going through another surgery. This old body is really sick of them. I haven't talked to him or a vascular surgeon yet, but my guess is that they will put a stint in like they did in my renal artery a couple of years ago. They go through the groin to place the stint. I am glad, though, that it wasn't an emergency, and the surgery (as far as I know right now) can wait until after my son leaves. This way we can enjoy spending time together.

When I talked to him, I asked the doctor, "considering what you know from the doppler and my symptoms, on a scale of one to ten with then being the worst, how bad is it?" His answer was "a seven or eight"... yep... guess it's got to get done.

I don't know when the surgery will be, but I'm praying that Karol will be available while I have to be in the hospital (2 days) to watch Gidget. Claudia offered to take her to her house, and that would be great, except she has four kids (which Gidge would love), but one of the boys is afraid of dogs, and he and another one of the boys are very young (I think 9 and 10 years old), and I'm afraid they would hurt my little girl. I didn't say anything about this to Claudia, but I'm looking into other avenues.

Gidget is doing good. She's actually sleeping now. Guess she's growing up. LOL

I'm missing Mike more than ever lately. It's almost worse than right after he first left me. Last night, I woke up in the middle of the night and came by the computer. I almost lost it because the glow from the computer screen made a bright light on the floor next to my chair. My heart stopped... thinking it was Mike, but then I realized it was only the reflection of the screen. This is suppose to be getting easier, but it's not. It's only getting harder. Don't get me wrong... I love little Gidget, and she's as cute as can be, and I'm grateful to have her here with me to keep my mind busy sometimes... but Mike is my heart, and I just wish I could have him back with me. I have his collar around the base of a light on my desk and a small baggie of his hair next to it. I leave it here because I know if he were here, he'd be right here by the computer with me. His collar looks so big when I compare it to Gidgets. I have to laugh, because for as small as he was, he was still pretty big compared to her (about ten pounds bigger). And his hair is just so soft... almost like rabbit fur. My God, I miss my boy.


Bluedazy said...

Joanna, I hope that all the news you get from the Dr. tomorrow is GOOD news! I will be thinking about you! I hope that you had a happy and healthy Memorial day!

Take care!
XOXOXOXO
Michelle, Daisy, Blue and Missy

May 25, 2009 7:07 PM

Hey Michelle, Daisy, Blue and Missy????..... Who's Missy? A new member of the family? I'm so sorry... I haven't been on IMOM in so long. Did you post something about her there? I'm going to go and look just as soon as I close this entry. How exciting... Daisy and Blue have a new sister??? I can't wait to read about her and see pictures. I hope you posted.
Thanks so much for posting. I know how busy you are. It's great to hear from you. Give those precious puppers hugs and nose kisses from us.

Love and Blessings To All,
Joanna, Angel Mike & Little Gidget